Thursday, 26 March 2015


White lights!
From the distance, I can hear you cuss and say my name,
As if from a distance too, I hear myself scream your name,
The screams are muffled by the pillows,
I'm rising, 
You are rising, 
We are soaring!
White Lights!

I can't bear it no more, 
"Baby NO!"
You say "Say 'YES!'"
"Baby NO!"
"Say 'YES!'"
"Baby YES!" "Baby YEAH!"
White Lights!

Totally lost our minds now, 
Sweat. Racing hearts. Heavy breathing.
We still soar... Yes!
There! Yeah! There!
SOAR!White Lights!

Beautiful White Lights!
What planet are we on now?
Can we stay here?
We still soar!
Break through! Shatter barriers!

Then tumble down to earth!
I find myself in your arms,
Limbs cramped,
But a delicious type of soreness,
I rest in the crook of your arm,
Listening to your heartbeat slow down, 
Listening to your breathing normalize,
Such bliss. Such peace.
Let us cuddle.

Monday, 16 March 2015

... these words

... these words I'm afraid to utter,       
 ... they are burning my palate,            
   ... scalding my tongue,                
    ... tried to swallow them back,                   
     ... yet they are scratching the the walls of my throat,                       
       ... punching and kicking the insides of my cheeks,                          
         ... i feel their fingers jabbing at my gum,                               
            ... still  I clench my teeth,                                  
              ... cause I can't let them go,                                       
              ... for if I let them out,                                          
              ... i'd be putting my last card on the table,                                              
             ... and this card is showing red hearts,

                                                    ... i won't be able to unsay them ....

Monday, 2 March 2015

Book 5: A non-fiction book

Leonardo da Vinci by Maurice Brockwell

"Everyone laments the loss of a man whose like Nature cannot produce a second time."

A very short book, this was. Finished it in less than 12 hours. Was so happy to stumble upon it, since I have always been fascinated with Da Vinci's works, especially Mona Lisa and The Vitruvian Man, it was a chance for me to get to know this man behind these great pieces of work/art.

The book starts from Leonardo di Ser Piero di Ser Guido da Vinci's birth, to his early training under Andrea del Verrochio, his early works (including The Annunciation which now lies in the Louvre and another Annunciation painting lying in the Uffizi Gallery), his visit to Milan entering the service of Ludovico Sforza where he painted the 'Vierge aux Rochers' which now lies in the Louvre.

In Milan he attempted to work on the statue of Sforza, making little progress. He also  (may have) painted the lost portrait of Cecilia Gallerini, one of Sforza's mistresses.

There are stories of Da vinci spending years under the Sultan Of Egypt, travelling in Armenia as his engineer then returning to Milan as general artificer where he began to work on the 'Treatise Painting' and Francesco Sforza's statue, which was then destroyed by the French in 1500.

Other works featured in the biography include 'The Virgin of The Rocks', the 'Last Supper' which he painted for the end wall of the Refectory of the Dominican Convent of S. Maria delle Grazie at Milan, 'The Head of Christ' which now lies in the Brera Gallery, Milan, the presumed portrait of Lucrezia Crivelli, now in the Louvre and the portrait of Mona Lisa,  which now lies in the Louvre.

Lisa di Antoni di Noldo Gherardin  aka 'La Joconde' is the lady behind one of Leonardo's famous art works, the Mona Lisa also known as 'La Joconde'.

After residing in the Vatican under Giovanni de' Medici as Pope, studying acoustics, geometry, engineering, anatomy, optics, geology, three years before his death, da Vinci moved to France. On May 2, 1519, he passed on.

"Mr. Lionard de Vincy, the noble Milanese, painter, engineer, and architect to the King, State Mechanician " and "former Professor of Painting to the Duke of Milan"
May God grant him His eternal peace." 

Book 4: A book that became a movie


by Elizabeth Gilbert

"A soul mate's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…"

This is one of the many quotes I loved in this book, one text which hit some strong chord in me. 

The way Elizabeth writes is so different from the previous three authors I've gone through in this challenge. Like Anna Karenina and Gone with the Wind, I struggled through this book, the same way that Liz struggled through the 182 verse Gurugita, breaking a sweat because sometimes I identified with some of the internal conflicts she was going through.

Reading this book made me feel like I have also traveled to Italy and enjoyed seeing all those fountains and eating all that pasta with Liz; made me feel like I have been to India, living at an Ashram, with my own guru, meditating and rising through those seven chakras to a point of enlightenment; that I have traveled to Indonesia and lived in the Utopian Bali and fallen in love with a handsome Brazilian man.

The balance we soo need in life, the happiness we so want, it just does not fall in our lap. We work hard and incessantly for it. 

       "Balance is not letting anybody love you less than you love yourself."

"To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life."

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."

There are other quotes I kinda related to, had to go through them over and over again. Well, in reading books, you learn that you are not alone, and that nothing is new under the sun. Somebody has been there before, somebody is there right now, and somebody is going to be there some day....

"I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with a man himself and then I hung on to the relationship for a long time waiting for the man to ascend to his greatness. Many times in romance, I have been a victim of my optimism."

"To feel physically comfortable with someone else's body is not a decision you can make....the mysterious magnet is either there ,buried somewhere deep behind the sternum,or it is not."

I am yet to watch the movie eat pray love (yeah, yeah, yeah, had to read the book first), I am looking forward to it, more because Julia Roberts, my favorite actress plays Elizabeth.

I loved this book. A lot. :) The ending is also beautiful. Liz works through the pains of her divorce and her break up with her lover David and finds a lover, Felipe, who is ready to be with her always.